As I type this my fever has gone down and I’m feeling about 70% better, but also my Metal Gear Solid stamina/psych meter is rapidly decreasing. Once my psych meter goes too low then I’ll get disoriented and my hands will jitter when I’m using a sniper rifle etc. so I’m going to get to bed as soon as I finish this.

I came to a realization about my fevered state this week. For the longest time I’ve had a recurring dream whenever I get a bad fever, but I could never quite put my finger on what was happening. I think I figured out part of it. The way I remembered it before was being given one very simple task that I could do easily and then being given one which was fundamentally the same thing, but an order of magnitude more difficult that it became beyond mind boggling. This state of mental anguish is/was one of the worst things about having a fever.

So I realized the day before yesterday a way to describe it that almost directly corresponded to what I see in my head. When I’m in my normal state, I look at the world around me, my apartment, television programs, video games etc and my brain takes in all this information and writes it down like my brain is a notepad. When I’m having a fever, my brain suddenly can’t write any information so my eyes see it but nothing is getting written down. This is not only very frustrating, but also makes it impossible to do anything because it’s like my brain can only process one thing at a time, but store none of it.

Long and short of it, I spent most of my time in bed trying to think of absolutely nothing to calm my brain down and relax. Hopefully by tomorrow I’m damn near 100%, now time for bed.