I wouldn’t say that I’m addicted by any stretch of the imagination, but I don’t feel good when I think about how most of my use of the internet doesn’t actually contribute towards things I want to achieve. I don’t have trouble “being present” when around friends in a social situation, it’s mostly when I’m by myself left to my own devices (literally). It takes a lot of will power to resist the urge, but I’m going to try harder to do it.
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I often find myself somewhat curious about psychology of internet commenters. I think most of them can boil down to just wanting to be heard and feeling powerless because that’s something most people can identify with. I’ve often seen horrible commenters who instantly become apologetic and meek once they find out someone is actually listening to them. Some are just horrible trolls to be sure, but I think most just want attention, to feel like they matter and to belong.
Also I know that all internet commenters aren’t young insecure kids, but man reading some comments makes me enjoy my 30s like crazy. Confidence is a really really hard thing to gain and not caring what others think is at least as hard. I don’t think it’s possible to be 100% confident or to not care, but I’m definitely better off now than I used to be.
I realized recently that I should really stop going out of my way to read forums and comment threads where people are just being awful. The past several months there’s been a lot of vitriol in video game related websites specifically around anything vaguely related to social justice and feminism. I know that as soon as those topics are touched upon the comment threads will totally explode within five minutes with everything from the worst possible things a human being can say to stuff that probably sounds reasonable to the person saying it but is horribly misguided or uninformed in some way.
I realized I was totally wasting my time in reading these threads because the curiosity factor was satiated a long time ago. I know what to expect now and the vague hope that some of these people will see reason is just absurd. I think it was scratching an itch that must be similar to watching trashy reality TV. So I’m now doing my best to stop seeking this stuff out spend the time more constructively. I already hate how much I procrastinate so that’s just one less thing to worry about.
I think it’s a universally truth that arguing over the internet is just never a good thing. Arguments have nuance, subtleties and usually opinions aren’t so simple. But on the internet, where every single sentence can be screencapped, isolated or at worst fabricated, those are treated as the definitive “opinion” of the person attached to it. Also, it’s a permanent record that exists in the world and opinions can change over time or people can rethink things and come to new realizations.
Also on the internet (and in real life) once people are associated with a certain opinion, it’s very difficult to publicly change it because that’s interpreted as weakness or possibly some form of corruption or both. So then it becomes about defending the position instead of the reason the position exists, if that makes sense at all.
Anyway, this itself is an incomplete thought but I just wanted to make this gif 😛
Long story short, people are complicated and nuanced, but over the internet we try to find the one thing to agree or disagree with and then label people accordingly. And that kind of sucks.
My mom used to tell me to take a break from playing games or watching TV, go outside and just look at the sky. I didn’t really do it at the age when she was telling me about it but I still thought about it every now and then. I think about it a lot more now because even if I wasn’t witness to periodic flare ups of internet drama or just horrible current events, it’s rather refreshing to look at something that’s not a screen.
Like I’ve said before I practice kung fu in the park almost every morning and one thing I do to try to relax my limbs (so that I can hit harder) is I look up at the trees in the distance and find it almost instantly relaxing. Also just looking at something that big makes me feel like any problems I have are small, temporary and most of the time not very long lasting.
So if you’re feeling stressed just take a break to look at some trees or a natural landscape. Doesn’t even have to be that long but it’s a nice way to refresh.
If as you read this there’s a comic displaying above the news post then YAY! If not, then UGGGHHHHH… As I write this the site is not 100% but I’m hoping that it’s just a matter of the site adjusting to the switch. Anna’s site migrated pretty much without a hitch, but for some reason the way mine was structured made things more difficult.
Either way I’m fully hosted on Dreamhost right now after ten years with Powweb. My oldest sister bought me the first year of hosting on Powweb all those years ago. Recently though they’ve kind of sucked with site outages and really bad customer support.
I’ve only had Dreamhost for a little while but their customer support and resources are vastly superior. Powweb had a Twitter account that was inactive for YEARS AND YEARS. I think they deleted their old tweets to hide that fact though.
I was mostly worried about Anna’s site because it gets a lot of traffic, and just because I usually worry about other’s people stuff more than my own if I’m the one responsible for anything going wrong.
Crossing my fingers!
This probably happens everywhere but I’ve noticed that Anna and I occasionally get followed by random people whose only connection I can tell is that they’re based in San Diego. What the heck do the Twitter feeds of these people look like who follow based on region?
Thought I’d call one out to see. Your move @MediaWin!
EDIT: Got a reply from @MediaWin turns out she thought my tweets were interesting while she was browsing the #SDCC hashtag which is totally legit. I do know that some other San Diego related Twitters follow myself and Anna, maybe I should do comics about them to find out too 😛
Lately I’ve been annoyed at myself for my lack of productivity in my side projects. I have a lot of game trailers that I want to edit but in a given day I don’t get much stuff done because I’m constantly distracted by the internet. So recently I decided to ration my internet checking to about every hour (later will probably do longer intervals).
The thing I’ve noticed is that not a whole lot happens on the sites I check in only one hour, which means that constantly checking them is even dumber. I have however made more progress on my latest fan trailer and hope after I finish that one t fast track the one coming up which I’ve been wanting to do for a while.
I follow 140 Twitter feeds and have about half a dozen RSS feeds that I’m subscribed to. After not checking my RSS feeds for a while it suddenly felt like a chore to check, so I got rid of three or four RSS feeds recently. I also once again pruned the people I follow on Twitter.
Seriously, if you don’t want to check your feeds, unsubscribing is a massive load off.